In the Night Season

Father,

Move in favor of Alex Ross. Move in his favor and bring him healing, restore him so that he can live to say that it was you who healed him and no one else. Use this as a moment to bring glory to your name, and I’m scared while I pray to you because I don’t know what to ask for and I want to ask for the right thing so desperately. I want to ask you to do what is right, I want to ask you to do what is truly going to happen. That doesn’t even make sense, but I just pray that you let Alex live. For several reasons, because he could learn from this and completely commit his life to you in every way you’ve ever desired for him. Because if he was to leave this earth, his family would be devastated. A million questions would be going through their heads, why did he get shot, why was it their son, why didn’t you stop this? It’s more drama than anyone needs, but I can’t understand it. All I can do right now is pray, simply pray that you work in favor of Alex. Give him life, bring him healing, restore him to his fullest potential. Let him have a chance at working for your kingdom, your kingdom that was meant for him too.

I will never understand. I will never be able to express the right emotions. I will never be able to say the right things. I will never know how to handle situations like these. But luckily, it doesn’t even matter. Because this has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with you. It always does.

I cannot fall asleep, I have a million things running through my mind. My chest is beating terribly, because of whatever reason I do not know.

Just have your way in his life tonight, in the days to come.

Strengthen P. WJ, as he stays faithful to his family/friends. Anoint his words, use him for your glory, to bring you honor, to bring you joy. Let the pastoral anointing you have placed on his life flow through him in these moments. Capacitate him to live up to his calling, increase his faith and take pleasure in him because he is faithful to you. He loves you more than anything, and will give up anything for you. That much I do know, that much my heart knows, so that much, I will ask.

Tomorrow I leave for the camping trip with all of the Student Life Department. I feel like no one is excited about it, the few that are will have to spark a flame and set everyone on the same mood that their in. It’s ridiculously cold outside, and if you’re from Florida like I am, it’s not enjoyable. Whatever lesson we are supposed to learn through this, I pray that it is made evident from the beginning. I pray that this retreat isn’t just about hanging out and relaxing, but I pray that it is about encounters with you. Encounters with you. Encounters with you. Encounters with you.

There’s a big knot in my chest, and I’m not sure why. I want to cry, I want to sit here and continue praying, I want to stay up all night because there is no point in going to bed and waking up in 3 hours. So that I will do.

I want you to be in my life, more than I could ever ask for. I want to be so focused on you, lost in you, that nothing moves me except for you.

I can’t help but think about a million different things. Why is this happening, why did this happen to that boy, why is Tori Mill’s mother in the hospital and what does it mean? I can ask but I don’t know how I will be answered. Just move in the name of Jesus, for your glory, for your honor, for your existence. I love you, and I know that you are real. Real to me, real to him, real to us all.

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One Comment to “In the Night Season”

  1. Jen. Thank you so much for your prayers for Alex and his family. And thank you for the prayers and support you have given me. Thank you. But know that there will be times that you say the right thing… this is one of many to come.

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