Archive for April, 2010

April 24, 2010

Manna

Everything we do needs to be about letting go. It needs to be about risking everything, not allowing the fear of failing to prevail against the desire to fulfill our dreams. Positioning ourselves in a place where God can flow through our words, through our thoughts, breathing his life into us and releasing himself through our actions. We have to stop being scared. Stop thinking of all the things that could go wrong with our decisions, and trusting that what God is calling us to will be the right thing. The greatest people that have ever lived took risks. We can’t hold back and live in the security of our homes. Living that way drains us of our dreams, it debilitates our hearts and suffocates us with “reality.” How many of us are desiring to be in someone elses shoes? We see others lives succeeding, we see them making something of themselves and we would rather have their lives over our own. Those people you marvel at took a chance to be where they are. All the actors you see on film are there because the propensity of their dreams overtook them and nothing would do but to go audition at the gig that seemed impossible to land.

Even more so, having the living and breathing God stand by us through every turn of life should give us more confidence. When Jesus called Matthew to be his disciple all he said was, “Follow me” and Matthew got up and followed him. (Matthew 9:9) No questions were asked, no preparations were made. He saw the miracles Jesus did with his own eyes, enough proof for him to leave everything he knew to gain an even greater life. We too have seen the miracles of God and through that our trust in Him is even stronger.

I can’t help but think that God wants more creativity out of us. I don’t simply mean having the ability to paint and draw, but having the ability to think past the mundane. Having the ability to dream of the impossible and bring it all into existence.

My prayer for you all is that you would allow your minds and your hearts to open up. That we would all begin and continue to position ourselves in a place to receive manna from Heaven, fresh revelations of life that would give us more hope and increase our desire to dream, dream and dream some more.

April 21, 2010

He wants us

There is nothing big or small that God can’t do. He sent Jesus to come and erase the sin of this world, so that he might be able to engage in a full on relationship with us. We don’t live a life with a God who plays puppet master, commanding us what to do. We live a life where our God is mindful of us, who wants us to be sealed for the day of redemption. He has this crazy desire to get to know the one that he himself created. What I mean by that is he desires for us to want him.

Kind of weird to say that, huh? God wants us to want him, but it’s completely true. He made us, knit our innermost being (Psalm 139) and because of the sin that has entangled the earth, we were born with a barrier between us and God. But that’s why Jesus was sent down from Heaven, to purge the crimson stain upon our robes, to break the chains of sin on all of our lives so that we may come face to face with our Creator.

To truly discover everything that this life is about is a complete adventure. It’s worth to jump off the edge with Christ, it’s worth to take the risk of experiencing the love of the Unseen. No greater risk can we take but the one of loving our Maker. Why is it risky? It’s a risk because once we choose to follow him, we have to change everything that we know and begin to see life through his eyes. I say we “have” to because when you begin to believe in his love for you, your soul will want nothing else. It will taste the beauty of the supernatural and you’ll fall deeply in love with an amazing God.

So really, you aren’t risking anything because he won’t leave you in the dark. Remember that he made you for himself…. ┬áThe book of Joshua reads in Chapter 1, verse 5, “…As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

April 15, 2010

A fantastic kind of life

Four years from today I made the concious decision to follow Jesus. I don’t like to say it was the day I was “saved” because I believe I was saved when Jesus died on the cross for me several years ago. April 15th of 2006 was the day that I accepted Jesus Christ for all that he is into my life. This was the day that I decided to never look back on my past mistakes, the day that what I had done no longer defined me. The day that I realized how much value I truly had. The day that I was made fully aware of God’s love for me. I spent the majority of my life before this feeling miserable and keeping myself preoccupied with losing control of my mind. I was covering up the deep wound in my heart with affirmation from others and material things. What I experienced on that day was like nothing I had ever experienced before. I walked into a house church of about 10 people, the future leaders of the church plant that would change my life and didn’t realize what was to come. I just remember feeling like I had finally reached home. As if these people were waiting for me, as if God already had my place at his table and was holding nothing against me for taking so long. On that day He also surrrounded me with the people that would help me become who I am now. God prepared everything, he clothed me and fed me in ways no one else ever had. The Word says to be anxious over nothing and to only worry about the Father’s kingdom and he will take care of the rest. I can honestly say that on this day I didn’t worry about what anyone would say or think, I didn’t worry about what my life would be without doing the things I had loved to do before. God gave me everything I needed and I developed a trust for him that surpassed even my own understanding because I don’t know how it got there.

Throughout these past 4 years…I have dealt with the good and the bad. Came to points where I didn’t believe God was there anymore, times when I pushed him so far from me that I lost focus of who I had become. I encountered and had relationships with others who dragged me down with them and delayed the blessings God had instore for me. I felt horrible at times again and went back to dealing with my problems the way I used to before this day but in the end…God never left me. His love is stronger than anything else I know. He never stopped dealing with my heart, even when I thought he did.

Where I am in my life now is completely unexpected but I shouldn’t be so shocked. I put the Creator of the Universe in such a small place at times and that is where I go wrong. He can and will make all of our dreams come true, because they are his dreams too. He’s making my deepest desires a reality, sooner than I thought because I didn’t have enough hope that they would come.

All this being said, April 15th of 2006 was the greatest day of my life. I am forever changed, my heart has been moved and touched by the most powerful love I will ever experience.